The guilt is going to kill me

I am so f*cking busy since I landed, massage clients of mine are kind of fighting over who gets the next massage. They have been waiting for months, so new clients sadly have to wait a bit. This one man has been asking for a massage the last couple days and I told him he could have one next week. Now I feel like a prick. Look what he wrote me today:



"We had spoken / e-mailed several months ago. I had read some of your advice in the New York Press. I had written to you and you always responded to me in a very funny and considerate way. As a normal man, your picture attached to your
work always drove me crazy. Anyway, I'm in the Army Reserves and my unit is
being activated. I am leaving the city today and will be head to Camp Shelby,
Mississippi on September 3rd to get ready for our deployment. for the past few
weeks, I've been doing some things in the city that I had thought about but
never did. For example, earlier this month I went to my first Yankees game.
I've been hitting restaurants that I've seen but never tried. Things like that.
Yesterday I got this wild idea that perhaps I would be able to meet you so I
took a chance and decided to write. I should have planned ahead but I won't get
into my organizational abilities. Unfortunately, I will have to wait many
months until I get the opportunity to meet you.

Thank you for getting back to me.


 I hope he makes it back to the US alive. 

Fuck George Bush and the Government for sending so many people to fight wars he started. I was thinking something last night that will sound like me nagging AGAIN, but it's my blog and I will vent if I want to. So there. One thing that pisses me off SO MUCH about the USA is the fucking AIR CONDITIONING. It is SO FUCKING COLD in all restaurants, shops, cafes, bars, cars, homes, hotels, omfg!!! I went into Blimpies last night (sandwich shop that originated in Hoboken, NJ) and ordered a healthy sub on whole wheat but it was BELOW zero in there (all employees wearing heavy sweat shirts, jeans, hats) that I HAD to take it to go. I ate it in my fucking car outside. I turned blue just waiting for them to put the sandwich together, couldn't wait to get the fuck out of there.  You go out to eat here and it's colder than a meat locker. THEN they serve you ICE WATER. OMFG. I don't know ANYONE in Europe who has an air condition and my friends all think I am a diva because I have a fan in my room. A tiny, plastic fan, mostly to drown out the noise of my annoying neighbors who love to recycle their glass bottles at 8 am. My friends whine about how much electricity my fan is using. ha ha. If they ONLY knew what goes on over here in yank land. 

 Jasmine told me during her school orientation she had to wear a jacket, hat and scarf as she was freezing. What the FUCK is wrong with this place? Every apartment I have been in has at LEAST two air conditioners running full power, full time. NO WONDER there is an energy crisis. Come on people. It is summer, enjoy the summer weather. You HAVE to bring so much clothing with you when you go out here. It is HOT as FUCK outside, but if you go ANYWHERE indoors, you freeze your cunt off. Most Americans are over weight, which makes them sweat and feel extra hot, so they "need" the air conditioning so they don't sweat like a pig. If everyone would eat less, use less energy, the world MIGHT start to like us. BUT NO, we were NEVER taught to think this way here in the USA. No one teaches you to turn off lights when you leave a room, turn down the heat if you don't need it, recycle, etc. They just consume, consume, CONSUME without thinking "hey, maybe I should do my part and save electricity and energy and recycle as the world is only getting more and more crowded and someday energy supplies may deplete!". You would think the massive BLACK OUTS they have would wake people up. BUT NO! The Government would never hold a press conference and say "come on people!!! recycle or fucking die!!" because we have to keep up the "land of the free" charade. 

Land of the FREE: Free to waste, free to ignore, free to consume without any concerns of the rest of the world, which, like it or not, do effect everyone. I find myself wearing MORE clothes in the summer here than I do in the winter. It's out of control. THEN there are the dryers. Everyone in the USA has a dryer to dry their clothes. I don't know ANYONE in Germany that owns a dryer. NO ONE. We hang our shit dry and it's no big deal. Clothes last MUCH longer that way anyways. I even hung Jasmine's cloth diapers dry every fucking day. Took a while, but it feels great to conserve. It's hard coming back here to the land of waste, I mean, plenty. 

Cracked me up the other day (more like a smirk of disbelief) when they were discussing on the news how Californians are the first folk in the USA to start taking care of their left over food wastes. AS IN, instead of throwing your orange peels and left over food in the normal trash, they put it all in a special container, handed out to them by the town office and it gets picked up and used as fuel/soil fertilizer. NO FUCKING SHIT Sherlock. I have been doing that, just like everyone else in Germany and most of Europe for YEARS. In the USA, they even have garbage disposals built into their sinks and they STILL throw left overs in the trash, which is why we have land fill problems. We have to wake up here and change the way we do things. It's so annoying how far "we" are behind here in the USA. Very sad. I apologize for our ignorance. Sorry.